Tuesday, August 5, 2008

lay aside the worries

My desk accurately reflects my work life at the moment. Papers are strewn everywhere, my recycling bin is full, the earrings I wore today are sandwiched between my cell phone and an important document. These things litter my work station:
  • Four binders - all of which I am currently referring to
  • Sticky notes
  • Multiple versions of the RA training schedule
  • Keys
  • "From Brokenness to Community" by Jean Vanier
  • "Compassion" by Henri Nouwen
  • My purse
  • Fish food (to remember to feed my office mate's fish)
  • Kleenex box (I've needed it this week)
  • A business card for an optometrist (I desperately need an updated prescription)
  • Picture dvds
  • A framed article that says "Speak up against injustice, oppression, hopelessness"
  • A pile of supplies for the RAs
It's amusing how ME it all is at the moment.

Usually my apartment reflects my work life, too. Well, thanks to the Grounds Crew that spread a dust-like layer of manure-fertilizer on the plants outside of my apartment, I had to rid my apartment of the nasty smell and vacuum up the black stuff that found its way inside my open windows... and now my apartment is clean and smells nice.

Oh, there is so much to do. I don't mind working late since the office is quiet and since I'm not 'on the clock' I can take breaks when I need them, blast music and answer my cell phone. I'm feeling rather ambitious and motivated. Much of which, I think, is backed by feelings of inadequacies, doubts, fears, and what-ifs.

All throughout the day, I've heard a still, small voice beckoning me to slow down, quiet myself, and rest in the Peace of Christ. I'm embarrassed to admit that I dismissed the invitation. I, for whatever reason, chose to dwell in my stress.

Now, as it's after-hours and my Pandora Radio station is playing worship music, I am once again moved by lyrics and melodies. This song promptly came on and it's bringing me back...

You're calling me to lay aside the worries of my day
To quiet down my busy mind and find a hiding place
Worthy, Worthy

I open up my heart and let my spirit worship Yours
I open up my mouth and let a song of praise come forth
Worthy, You are worthy

Of a child-like faith
And of my honest praise
And of my unashamed love
Of a holy life
And of my sacrifice
And of my unashamed love

"Unashamed Love" by Ten Shekel Shirt

Thank you, Lord, for your faithfulness even when I am unfaithful. In humility, surrender, and reverence, I come.

Funny story... as I'm ending this blog, the song is being replayed by a different artist. And I'm certainly not sick of it. :)


Chrislyn said...

sister, i love you. have i told you that lately?

Ashley Willey said...

i love reading your blog. i always look at it after chrislyns. thank you for sharing what you are learning :) remember when we found out you were gonna be aac again? MY aac?? :) such a good year